I donāt usually ever talk about things like this, especially to strangers and I will probably delete it eventually butā¦.
Iām 21. And from like age 8-20 I had a problem with stealing. And it was not because I necessarily needed to but I would usually just take candy from stores. And as stupid as sounds, thatās literally the only reason why I did itā¦because I wanted candy. Only time I took something I actually needed were some batteries and a phone charger but nothing beyond just that. I also took money from my classmates lockers and I even once almost took someoneās iPod, but I was so afraid that I ended up giving it back the next day. But whatās even worse is the fact that I have taken some of my brotherās birthday/Christmas money that he keeps in a stash. Rough estimate at least $250. Could be less. And yes I do feel horrible about it all. And I wish I could go back in time and have never done it to begin with. Fast forward to now I have successfully fought off the urge to shoplift because I know how bad it can be for your career if you get caught. Iām currently a full time college student so I donāt work. My dad gives me a certain amount of spending money every week to kind of help me. And I have been putting a bit of it back in my brotherās stash as restitution. And no I havenāt told my brother because we do have a good relationship and heās one of the closest people to me. I appreciate any advice. Feel free to call me a pos as well.
Edited Update: thanks for the advice and support. So basically after going back and forth about it I decided to tell my mom pretty much what I told this thread. I didnāt go too deep into detail in terms of listing every single thing I took but I told her enough to know whatās going on. Surprisingly, she didnāt get angry about it. Disappointed, yes. But I know she was glad I told her. She reminded me in her humorous fashion that she āreserves the right to get mad.ā So this weekend we plan on going to the bank to get money out of my savings and give it to my brother. Right now, heās at school in a difference city and wonāt be back until Spring break. Thatās when I plan on telling him and giving him the money and will offer to buy him lunch afterwards. I do feel better now that my mom knows but the mission isnāt accomplished until my brother knows. Like I said, him and I are fairly close and we rarely fight over anything besides petty stupid stuff, so I donāt know how he will react. Prayers and good luck would be appreciated as well as any additional advice.
I get why you would feel like a bad person. You stole and thatās easily considered wrong. Feeling bad about that is natural.
I think you are allowed room for mistakes. And if something is a habit it is good to be kind to yourself. Cleaning up a long held bad habit can take longer than we expect.
My advice is that sometimes we realize we want to live differently, and thatās awesome. You obviously want to give back and be kind to people. You are also very young and impulse control is a bitch. It doesnāt finish developing till late 20s.
Youāll make more mistakes in the future. Youāll realize youāve hurt people and thatās okay, thatās life. Just keep adjusting and donāt be too hard on yourself.
I appreciate this so much. You are very kind