A vague concept is the best way to put it. I can understand the concepts on a intellectual level but I just don’t feel them. Like, I can understand regretting something because it hurt someone else but I don’t know how you can feel someone else’s pain. It’s the same for guilt. ASPD gives you an extremely short time preference. If I make a bad decision once I’m done dealing with the consequences I don’t really think about it. The future is in the future so why really care and the past is the past. It’s for this reason I don’t feel anything for the people involved.

I understand this isn’t a good way of thinking about things. I understand I need to improve myself to stop these toxic patterns of thinking. I now make that I not only learn from my mistakes but put what I learnt into practice.

I may not feel empathy or guilt like a normal person but I can learn my short commings and work on them and at the end of the day that’s what being a good person is all about.