Hey, I used to do the same, but with meth, heroin and needles. I was literally not brave enough to end it, so I was slowly trying to kill myself or hoping a good bag would do it. Thankfully, I never found that bag. I won’t lie and say life is great, but I promise it can be different. I’m no bringer of hope, but if you ever feel like chatting, DM me.
Just makes me think of car talk