The closest experience I ever experienced in my life was my prelife form without a physical body.

I can’t say if it was relaxing, scary, unfulfilling or any thing. I was in a state of time being meaningless.

One day when I quit existing I will return and hopefully remain in that state for a long time until I start existing again. I have never been asked if I wanted to exist so I just exist until I quit existing

Not giving a single F about anything.

I wish I could return to the state I was during pre birth. I have been given a small time frame of giving f’s though until I will return to that state I desire to be in.

In about 50 years if nothing out of my control wipes me out I will return to being non existent.

Thinking about this makes me wonder, I havent given a single f since the big bang and now I am thrown on to a globe and a large handful of people passively forcing me to do. I have to be. I never had the option to not be. Lets see where this goes