I’m a researcher and i would gladly send anyone a paper who asks, without a reason needed. Although all my papers are open access anyways so shrugs. Btw it’s also not unusual that people may just ask some questions related to ones paper via email and im always happy to answer those. I believe that most researchers are always glad to share their expertise and findings (as long as it isn’t a huge effort ofc).

If you’re not dependent on your parents, think about cutting them out of your life or at least strongly reducing contact. Trust me, mich less stress this way, choose people who are good to you to keep around.

In general i miss all the TTRPG communities

They didn’t write communism, they wrote tankies. And while I won’t equate tankies to nazis, they do share a lot of ideology, such as their love of strongmen.