There isn’t really a point if you don’t want to do any work to get better. Not sure why you’re in asklemmy asking about why to live and then shooting down any ways to improve your life. And this is coming from someone with chronic treatment resistant depression
You haven’t done all of it, though, and you straight up said you don’t want anyone to tell you things to help. Honestly, I’m not sure what the point of this post is other than getting you some attention