Because it is different and I’m not saying what I did was ok. I’m using it as an example of problematic behaviour that I exhibited in the real world. I’m not proud of what I did but I also can’t change the past. I could also be a coward and pretend I’m some kind of saint which I’m not. I’m not defending my what I did I’m also not defending people using the n word. As I said it’s something I did and something I knew was wrong the second I did it but as I said earlier I was ready to accept the social consequences of what I said to somebody.
Anyways I used the story of some very bad behaviour I engaged in as an anecdote to show that when people act shitty in real life there are actual consequences mainly the possibility of getting punched. The person I said it to and his friends decided not to beat the shit out of me and I’m greatful for that because I would of deserved it.
I don’t go around using the n word and I have no idea why the fuck I said it but yeah two days of drinking not sleeping will do weird shit to your brain.
Ok? Why are you grouping a whole bunch of people together for something I did, I’m not speaking on behalf of a community……
Also I find it weird that people would ask my why I would admit this. It just says to me that some people are willing to hide the shitty stuff they do instead of confronting it and actually dealing with the source of the problem.